Alright, so ive been diagnosed with panic attacks (but i dont think panic disorder) but i do get them frequently, i have really bad hypochondria but i dont obsessively sanitize myself or anything, social anxiety disorder and clinical depression. As well as some OCD, which I think is fairly true but..heres my problem. About every year I become obsessed (and Imean its my purpose in life and its all I can think of and its my reason to live and its all that makes me happy, its the only reason to wake up, etc and it provides me with complete euphoria) A MOVIE -_- at my worst ive seen one 25 times in the movie theatre. its my escape. and usually i become obsessed with an actor from it. Im not gonna say what movie im osessed with now at this moment, but I am. Last year it was another one. And then I start looking for a guy in real life that looks like whatever actor from the movie that Im obsessed with. Last year I found one and I was OBSESSED with this boy (the actor and the one in real life) until now..that Ive found another movie and guy. This started when I was 8 and now Im 16. Nothing else in life gives me as much pleasure and every day I just wanna see the movie, watch the actor in the movie and obsess. Ill buy everything merchandise, soundtracks, posters and for a year ill just live and breathe it. It provides me with my only happiness. Might it be because Im afraid of real relationships and getting hurt (which I am) that instead I turn to movies and actors to fill me with the same joy I would have if i were in a relationship? Its emberassing but the movie/actor ecome my almost everything.
Also I constantly have thoughts about killing people. Not family, just friends and especially strangers. I hate people. So so so so so much. Everyones a filthy peice of **** and all they do is hurt eachother. Were lower than animals, which I use to torture when I was smaller…Ive denied any impulses to do anything,though. Although when I get mad, as youd expect, I go ******* insane. I would love to torture people ,more than kill. I eel like everytime I teel people these things they dont take me seriously..do I have to do it for people finalyl to take notice and believe me and see the **** theyve done to me?
I go to a psych and im supposed to be on celexa but im only on xanax. I can deal with anxiety. And I dont really want the obsessions to stop because theyre the only thing that makes me happy in life. Is this a form of OCD? Id like some opinoins/answers.
I want to write something about how a person can have nothing at all and just one person makes their life worth living.I have alot of stuff my family is wealthy but like they say money can’t buy love. My family is not very close my mom is in jail she got her Doctoral license taken and she got 3 years for perscribing herself Xanax, Dilantin, Prozac, and Codiene or how ever you spell that my dad is so obsessed in his work hes never home yeah he gets us what we need and bought me a condo but I feel like hes just trying to get rid of me.I have 3 older brother who are in and out of jail my brother Steven was in Prison for 6 years and their all in Gangs and dumb ****. I’ve tried suicide a few times but one person kept popping in my head which is my gf Emily and I couldn’t do it and I would always call her crying after that.I dont want a psycho screamo song I wants something more like what Thriving Ivory does their a really good band.The song Angels On The Moon is AMAZING!
okay. please no lectures. i just need help.
the last time i smoked weed was like a week ago.
i am small, i wiegh about 95 pounds, but i don’t eat very healthy, and not much into exersize. just incase you needed to know that info.
but anyways, i got in trouble for something stupid, and i now have a hearing that i may or may not be drug tested at.
i need to know the fastest way to get my pee to pass with out using someone elses pee and without buying any detox pills other then things that i could easily buy over the counter.
please help, i know i made a mistake, and i plan on quiting smoking weed, but i desperatly need to pass this test.
and btw, i took two xanax for the first time like four nights ago, it didnt do much to me, and i did this before i realize i was going to get drugg tested, but does something like this show up in a pee test?
This is an argumentive essay but we were able to choose a side or explain cause and effects. Please let me know what is wrong.
Walker
Writing 122
29 May 2009
Pain Medications are Ruining Our Lives
If you think about how often a person goes to the doctor for pain its more than necessary. Doctors prescribe you a pain pill no matter what you may have, you go in for a cold and they give you vicodin, you have a headache and you get oxycodeine, your glands in your neck are swollen so they give you a pain shot. In fact, painkiller use has boomed by 88% in less than a decade. Every year more and more humans get addicted to pain pills. Not only does the person ruin their life (health), but they are also harming everyone around them. However not all the time is it the persons fault for becoming addicted, but it’s the doctors fault.
Doctors (especially in Roseburg) are extremly lazy and really don’t care about their patients. They want you in and out as quickly as possible. So for most people if you are in pain you will get vicodin automatically. Yes vicodin is the most body friendly prescription, but it is very addictive. What consumers don’t realize is the major side affects that the doctors know. You don’t get a, “warning this drug may cause an addiction,” label on the side of the prescription nor on the paperwork that comes with it. So the average American is really clueless when they take that first dose.
However, many pain pills also carry a dangerous side effect (the potential for addiction). Many people have become addicted over the years to drugs that should have been used only temporarily to treat a medical condition. Taken too long or in larger amounts than prescribed, many drugs can become a problem and a threat to your life and other around you. About 6.2 million Americans abuse painkillers, sedatives, tranquilizers, and stimulants (making prescription drugs second to marijuana). Among uses of all drugs that’s more than the number of cocaine addicts nationwide and the number appears to be growing.
With each year, pain pills are getting pushed to everyone that has any kind of symptoms. When a person starts a pain pill, after taking the pill for so long, that person gets addicted (An addiction is primarily a state where the body begins to rely on a drug or an external chemical substance in order to carry out its normal functions. For instance vicodin is the most body friendly drug but very addicting.). The person loves the feeling that he/she has when they are on the pill (usually most people feel energy but there isn’t the caffeine headache/crash from drinking caffeine) that they want more. Then the person is tracking down people that have that pain medications that they need and once they find a person with their pill of choice they buy it for an outrageous amount of money (oxycotin is one of the worst pills out there and people spend up to sixty dollars just for one pill). People buying each others prescriptions are happening more and more each day. The people today are so bad about needing/wanting the pills that they will go through garbage’s just to find what they need. Most of the pills being prescribed give the user major withdrawls and the person has to get professional help to get off the medication. You get placed on a medication to get better not to get addicted then have to spend more money on classes to get over your addiction. Not only is it a waste of money, but to be seen by a doctor for your addiction can take up to six months or even longer.
The United States has become a huge pill popping nation. Everyone wants a pill to relieve them of any feeling that is undesirable. The most commonly abused medications include pain relievers such as: Vicodin, Oxycontin, Percocet and Morphine; Depressants like: Valium and Xanax; As well as Stimulants including: Adderall and Ritalin. It is estimated that twenty percent of Americans age twelve and older have used prescription medications for non-medical use (the young children are becoming addicted and starting to sell pills as well). The elderly are usually more vulnerable for abuse issues because they are generally prescribed more medications than other age groups. However, prescription drug abuse is increasing most in ages 18-25 up from 5.4% in 2002 to 6.4% in 2006. Prescription medications are perceived as an expected discomfort relief tool or a luxury for those in dire need. With today’s addictive epidemic, narcotic medications need to be administered more sparingly to avoid abuse and addiction. Many do not recognize that turning to prescription medications for relief opens the door to possible abuse and addiction.
Of course when you feel pain, you definitely don’t like the feeling, but pain isn’t going to kill us. Pain is a message that tells are body that we are alive. It lets us no good and bad. Pain can tell us that we need to exercise, get up and stretch, or that
My almost 26 year old stepdaughter has announced that she is marrying a fellow that she has only dated for 10 days prior to the announcement. The fellow is a nice guy but what can I say, when on the second time I met him they announced they were getting married? Knowing Tasha like I do, there is no way to try to talk to her to maybe postpone the wedding date of June 20. I would prefer they live together and save some money as they are both broke and working paycheck to paycheck. They also announced that she is not pregnant, thank goodness! (She has a 6 year old son from another relationship) I decided to support her in her decision because if I didn’t it would have damaged our relationship that I have so enjoyed for the last two years. Tasha I’m positive is Bi Polar but unmedicated and her family doctor has prescribed Xanax for her. ????? I don’t even know if she takes it like she’s supposed to or not. The problem is Tasha was rattling off every wedding plan immediately after the announcement of the engagement at a resturant we were eating at as a family, and ignoring her son and her soon to be husband. She was highly agitated and wound up like she has been in the past. She asked me if I would take her to the bridal shops and help her pick the dresses out and help her pick her dress out. I said of course I would, but I sensed her nervousness and said don’t forget they have their biggest sale right after the holidays so just enjoy your first holidays together and don’t worry about planning you can do that after the holidays, just have a happy time at Christmas together. We then planned a family outting to get to know the fellow better the next Sat. I spoke to Tasha that Sat morning about the family outing and we were to meet them at 3pm. The next thing I know is my sister in law who is in the wedding calls me on the phone asking ‘Hey are you coming down?’……… Tasha had invited all the other girls in the wedding to go try on dresses and buy her wedding dress, but delibarately did not tell me or her step sister, my 13 year old daughter is to be a bridesmaid also. This absolutely broke my heart and broke the heart of my daughter who worships the ground Tasha walks on. I was crushed. One, she hurt he step sister and doesn’t care that she did it. Two, I’ve been her ‘mom’ for the last 9 years, granted it’s been more than difficult most of the time. She lies uncontrollably, she’s hateful, she’s absolutely unbearable at times, but I’ve always been there to catch her when she fell. Never taking control of her life but letting her make the decisions and if she asked for an opinion I gave it as an option for her to think about. I was the one she called when she was hurt or sick or lonely. I never tried to replace her Mother but was whatever she wanted me to be. She and her real Mother have a horrible relationship because they are too much alike. They haven’t spoken civil to one another for years. Tasha and my relationship had really grown the last two years, she texted or called me EVERYDAY on her lunch hour and all the way home after work. She moved into a rental home down the road from us, I open the door every morning at 5am for her to drop off our grandson, so that I can get him to & from school daily with my children, helping her as I have from the beginging. (mind you I’m only 40). I literally have include Tasha in every family gathering that we have. Her Dad and I were also wanting to surprise her for her birthday (Jan) and buy her wedding dress for her. I also wanted to take pictures of the day she found the wedding dress and the whole process for her to make a scrapbook for her to have as another personal gift for her. Needless to say, Tasha & her fellow never showed up to the family outing we planned, but that same evening we stopped by the sister in laws home visiting and Tasha & Fellow showed up. She never spoke a word to her Dad or I let alone even looked at us. She’s refused my texts, my phone calls, so I stopped trying, thinking it would give her some room to think. I cried and cried. The other children are upset with her for treating “Mom’ like that. Now tonight, she calls her Dad and says ‘I’m bringing your grandson in the morning @ 5′. He proceeds to tell her, ‘ You know I leave at 4am to go to work. That’s yours and Momma’s thing,…….’ Tasha hung up on him. What in the world do I do? She won’t talk to me at this point, I’ve debated writing a letter to her, but I don’t know what I’ve done. How do I handle this? Do I allow her to have me in her life ONLY when it’s convenient for her or when she wants something? I can’t handle the hurt much,….I’ve gotten close to her in the past only to let her sucker punch me with episodes like this. When is enough enough? I’m exhausted. Sometimes I believe I’ve used up so much of myself trying to help her and be there for her that when my own children may need me in the future that there may not be en
this one is long but i need to know what my options are.
my boyfriend and i were exiting a a very popular retail store after buying my daughter her valentines present (a my life size barbi). as we approached the doors outside this guy walks by and says p*ssy a** mother f*cker. my boyfriend turns and ask do i know you. the guy proceeds to walk up to me and my boyfriend and ask if we wanted to know him. a security officer is posted up not even 5 feet away and says nothing while they banter back andd forth. i asked the security gaurd is i could get a little help here and he just looks at me. i finally get my boyfriend to continue to leave and told the guy he needed to go inside and shop for whatever he intented to buy when he got here and leave us alone. as we are in the parking lot we hear “i’ll f*cking cut you mother f*cker” we turn around and the guy not only followed us back out into the parking lot but he also had his hand in his pocket. i asked him “didnt i tell you to stay inside what the hell is your problem?” and he replies “i’ll cut you too b*tch”. i’ve had enough at this retail store. i flag him down and tell him look “this guy is harrassing us please get him away from us he’s scaring me”. so the security follows in his truck.and parks about a lane away from where my boyfriend and i have parked. (keep in mind this security officer NEVER steps out of his truck nor does he phone the police during the incidents i’m about to state.) he rolls his window down and the guy who’s been harrassing us walks over to the truck and i’m not sure what he is saying but he keeps bantering us finally i get my boyfriend in his car(we drove seperate cars because i had just gotten off work at my second job and it was 10pm and i didnt want to go to the store alone, especially in my waitress outfit when anyone with sense knows i would probably have some cash on me.. therefore i got him to meet me up there, plus we were goin to hide my daughters barbi in his trunk until valentines day). he gets in his car and as i get in mine i notice this guy walking towards my car. (remember the security is STILL sitting in his truck) he puts his hand in his pocket, i check to see if my boyfriend had already left the parking lot and i see my boyfriend slam on his brakes, he gets out honks the horn(trying to get the attention away from me) and throws a red bull can at the guy who is still harrassing us. the guy then runs towards my boyfriends car, i back out of my parking spot and drive to where my boyfriend is. the guy tries to reach in my boyfriends window of his car with his KNIFE and my boyfriend takes off… the guy then throws the knife and ends up busting out my boyfriends back windshield of his brand new car with it. i’m freaking out at this point. i’m trying to find my phone and call the police(of course my purse is a suitcase!! so of course when i need it most i cant find it)… the guy starts taking his jacket off and wanting my boyfriend to fight him and my boyfriend tells him “sorry buddy whooping your *** isnt goin to fix my car’s back windshield so i’ll just call the police” the guy takes off down the sideroad.. my boyfriend drops the phone and ends up running over the guy cause when i see his head go down, i suppose to grab the phone, i see the boy walk into the front of his car.(remember that security officer??? yeah he’s still in his truck, hasn’t moved an inch). so my boyfriend keeps going.(yes i know a hit and run and this guy did press charges and wants my boyfriend to pay his medical bills now, it’s been dropped to a felony.. leaving the scene of an accident with injuries… the guy seriously tried to get him for attempted vehicler homicide!!!!) anyways… 2 days later my picture is all over the news stating that i was in the vehicle that sent a man to the hospital when clearly i was driving my own car!!, wanna know who filed the police report …. the security officer in the parking lot!!! not only that ever since that night i have terrible anxiety when i am alone in parking lots or whenever it’s just my child and i, and since have been put on xanax. so because of 2 security gaurds at this retail store just ignoring me and one of those morons stating i was in the same car with my boyfriend when he clearly saw me get into my own car, my face was all over the city news as well as our alabama state website!!!!! and in the paper. not to mention i had to explain to my 2 jobs why i was in the paper. and on top of it i feel so un-naturally unsafe in any parking lot i give myself panic attacks!! what are my rights??? and what can i do??? i’m still so upset about the situation and the parking lot panic attacks are really stating to affect my everyday life. i’ve never ever been in any kind of situation like that and i think about it all the time!! if anyone has any idea what i can do please tell me… thank you!
i have a 31 year old boyfriend He is a “Hustler”. I am 18. We have been together for 1 year and four months. I have never been in trouble until we got together. I have been arrested 5 times for possession of xanax since i have been with him. Everybody seems to think its his fault. Buy i dont see how when im the one who is taking the drugs and tend to carry them on me like a dumb ***. We have been living from hotel to hotel bc he can not get a apartment or anything bc he is a 5 time felon and i have no job. He does not want me to work bc he is super jealous. He doesnt like me speaking or talking to anyone but him. And if he sees me associating with a dude. He gets really angry and agressive. People dont understand why i stay with him. Especially bc he is now in jail until april..they think that i should leave him. He is a thug or a gangster w/e you wanna call him and is a very very well known hustler where we are from. So we are constantly harrased by the laws. I am now on probation for two years..I am ver very much in love with him. We have been through s hit load.What do you guys think? Just wanna know some opinions
i just bought this pills today to help out with stress i feel very fatigue im taking xanax 0.25 for anxiety i dont take the xanax daily only when needed im only 21 yrs old i just want my energy back , does anybody knows if thats too much or should lower the dose of the b12 i havent take any yet .
k well me and my 2 friends took some took a 2mg xanax each last night and then bout 30 min later we decided to buy a 20 sack and we smoked it like me and my other friend felt good and fine but my other friend was throwing up so much and like ive smoked with em both before and my friend threw up last time but we did robotrip before smoking last time? like whats wrong with him why does he throw up when he smokes? is their something wrong with him? or does he just fail at life hahah
so heres the thing im scared of heights, birds, and fish. sounds stupid i know but to me they are horrible horrible things. Ive flown twice the first time i was real little and didnt mind it. the second time was probably a year ago i was 16 cried for an hour before we got on and spent the whole flight with my face buried in my moms lap. now i have to fly again here in two weeks. my boyfriend and his dad are going to pheonix to visit family and my bf begged and begged me to go so finally i said ok and they bought me a ticket. but now the time is getting close and the more i think about it the more scared i am. i think ive cried every night for the past week just thinking about being on that plane. plus that other plane just crashed because BIRDS flew into the engine and they landed in the WATER where im sure there were FISH. so now im more scared then even that birds will attack my plane and ill fall into the water with fish in it. plus even thinking about being up that high makes me sweaty and nauseous. last time i was up high it was out on a pier over the ocean and i passed out when my bf let go of my hand. how can i over come this fear in two weeks? his dad is going so i cant like take a valium or a xanax which was my original plan. i just dont know what to do and i cant back out cus i already have a ticket. ugh… my hands are all clammy just typing this… help?!?!