buy xanax Q&A

Yes, i posted before. I don’t think people took me seriously enough.
I would like to know how to get sick. I’mtalkingg about brain damage (permanently will be a plus).
I got this, most of it i bought from an IOP:
Valium/Diazepam
Klonopin/Clonazepam
Ativan/Lorazepam
Xanax/Alprazolam
Soma/Carisoprodol
Tramadol
Promethazine
Bricanyl
Aspirin
Paracetamol
I also got ALOT vitamins… will a MEGA .. like 100g dose make any brain damage?
If anyone knows how to get LSD, please tell me that also.
Will mixing any of thoughcausee me brain damage. Do i need to hit my self hard? Please i need a need ‘recipe’. Thank you.
I lastly. I’. NOT ****** up psychosis freak. I’m working got (a VERY few) friends. etc… all this normal things, and that’s freaking me out. Give me something terrible mental permanent condition.

i barely move i feel thirsty and my hands are so cold ,i retype what i write for many times
i always take what people say without saying no or protest ,today i fought with my family and i exploded and shouted from the top of my head ,now i cant think properly and i feel like sedated ,my hands are still so cold now they started to warm as i write this ,
what can i drink,my mother offered me xanax or libracs
i went to my place and i barely open my eyes ,and i don’t want to show them that i m still hurt ,
tell me what to do
i started to think of running away from the whole country and change my name and take all money i have and buy a store or something
or i just should kill myself and *its not threatening no its a statement because if a person cant find his/her foot on the ground and be treated like a human who has rights then why in hell should i live??
i m so confused right now
and don’t know what to do
,if i cant say what i want because i m too afraid to hurt their feelings while no one gives a `shI# to what i feel?
i believe in god ,and i believe he is fair with us but i m simply not able to cope with people

Alright, so ive been diagnosed with panic attacks (but i dont think panic disorder) but i do get them frequently, i have really bad hypochondria but i dont obsessively sanitize myself or anything, social anxiety disorder and clinical depression. As well as some OCD, which I think is fairly true but..heres my problem. About every year I become obsessed (and Imean its my purpose in life and its all I can think of and its my reason to live and its all that makes me happy, its the only reason to wake up, etc and it provides me with complete euphoria) A MOVIE -_- at my worst ive seen one 25 times in the movie theatre. its my escape. and usually i become obsessed with an actor from it. Im not gonna say what movie im osessed with now at this moment, but I am. Last year it was another one. And then I start looking for a guy in real life that looks like whatever actor from the movie that Im obsessed with. Last year I found one and I was OBSESSED with this boy (the actor and the one in real life) until now..that Ive found another movie and guy. This started when I was 8 and now Im 16. Nothing else in life gives me as much pleasure and every day I just wanna see the movie, watch the actor in the movie and obsess. Ill buy everything merchandise, soundtracks, posters and for a year ill just live and breathe it. It provides me with my only happiness. Might it be because Im afraid of real relationships and getting hurt (which I am) that instead I turn to movies and actors to fill me with the same joy I would have if i were in a relationship? Its emberassing but the movie/actor ecome my almost everything.
Also I constantly have thoughts about killing people. Not family, just friends and especially strangers. I hate people. So so so so so much. Everyones a filthy peice of **** and all they do is hurt eachother. Were lower than animals, which I use to torture when I was smaller…Ive denied any impulses to do anything,though. Although when I get mad, as youd expect, I go ******* insane. I would love to torture people ,more than kill. I eel like everytime I teel people these things they dont take me seriously..do I have to do it for people finalyl to take notice and believe me and see the **** theyve done to me?
I go to a psych and im supposed to be on celexa but im only on xanax. I can deal with anxiety. And I dont really want the obsessions to stop because theyre the only thing that makes me happy in life. Is this a form of OCD? Id like some opinoins/answers.

i have a 31 year old boyfriend He is a “Hustler”. I am 18. We have been together for 1 year and four months. I have never been in trouble until we got together. I have been arrested 5 times for possession of xanax since i have been with him. Everybody seems to think its his fault. Buy i dont see how when im the one who is taking the drugs and tend to carry them on me like a dumb ***. We have been living from hotel to hotel bc he can not get a apartment or anything bc he is a 5 time felon and i have no job. He does not want me to work bc he is super jealous. He doesnt like me speaking or talking to anyone but him. And if he sees me associating with a dude. He gets really angry and agressive. People dont understand why i stay with him. Especially bc he is now in jail until april..they think that i should leave him. He is a thug or a gangster w/e you wanna call him and is a very very well known hustler where we are from. So we are constantly harrased by the laws. I am now on probation for two years..I am ver very much in love with him. We have been through s hit load.What do you guys think? Just wanna know some opinions

today, i bought 1 pill of zanex from some guy for $5. and i looked up images of zanex and it looks nothing like what i got today. the stuff he gave me is white, circular, and has an X indented in it… is it the real SH*T? or just a ripoff?

I took 3.5mg about 5-7 days ago and about 4 days before that I took 5.5mg. Would it be out of my system by now (pee test)? If not how much longer will it take?
The reason I’m asking is because I’m going to fill out an application for Best Buy and they drug test.