buy xanax Q&A

Yes, i posted before. I don’t think people took me seriously enough.
I would like to know how to get sick. I’mtalkingg about brain damage (permanently will be a plus).
I got this, most of it i bought from an IOP:
Valium/Diazepam
Klonopin/Clonazepam
Ativan/Lorazepam
Xanax/Alprazolam
Soma/Carisoprodol
Tramadol
Promethazine
Bricanyl
Aspirin
Paracetamol
I also got ALOT vitamins… will a MEGA .. like 100g dose make any brain damage?
If anyone knows how to get LSD, please tell me that also.
Will mixing any of thoughcausee me brain damage. Do i need to hit my self hard? Please i need a need ‘recipe’. Thank you.
I lastly. I’. NOT ****** up psychosis freak. I’m working got (a VERY few) friends. etc… all this normal things, and that’s freaking me out. Give me something terrible mental permanent condition.

The doctor said he wanted to test me for thyroid problems so he said I needed to take a blood test. When there testing for thyroid problems is there going to be a drug test too? I took a 10mg valium yesterday in the morning. Too any smartasses that think Im abusing it Im NOT I have really bad anxiety problems but cant get xanax or valium perscription so I gotta buy it under the table. Im trying to be a good person and get valium but Im afraid if I say something to the doctor he will think Im a drug addict. Again Im NOT!

I have a very severe panic disorder that sometimes keeps me from doing things I have to do, like go buy groceries at the store, get my hair cut, or go pay bills. At home, I am fine. Not depressed, anxious, or anything. It is just when I go out in public that I get panicky and start to freak out–once I remove myself from the situation, I am fine again.
To deal with this, I was prescribed Alprazolam back in October, to be taken as-needed. I don’t use the medication at all unless I have to leave the house for some reason, like to buy groceries, and then I carry it with me just in case I need it.
I was given 15 pills back in October, and now, 4 months later, I still have 4 left. So I only used 11 pills in 4 months–I think that goes to show I don’t abuse it.
But as I am starting to run low, I am going to be needing some more, and am going to make an appointment with my doctor this week for that purpose. But the problem is, I know Alprazloam is a drug that is widely abused by some people, and it carries a certain stigma with it that makes some doctors not want to prescribe it for that reason. And it is going to look awfully suspicious when I go there and specifically ask for Alprazolam as the sole purpose of my visit. I’m afraid the doctor will think I am a drug abuser and tell me no.
But here’s the thing: I refuse to take daily anti-depressants or other, more long-term anxiety medications such as SSRIs. Because unless I am out in public, I am fine. At home, nothing bothers me. The reason I have panic attacks is because I was the victim of a violent crime, and going out in public places stirs up old memories and causes me to freak out. But I don’t want to subject myself to long-term medications when I am just fine when not in public. I like being able to take a pill to control the panic attack SPECIFICALLY, since that is my problem, not depression or anxiety in general.
I am thinking of bringing my current bottle of the medication with me to show the doctor I still have some of it left, as proof I am not abusing it. I just don’t know what he’s going to say if I go in there and tell him I’m seeking Alprazolam–do you think he, or any other doctor, would say no? I have my bottle, filled in October, for 15 pills, with 4 of them left…shouldn’t that be enough for them to know I am not an drug abuser and simply like having it on standby? I do need to be able to go out in public every now and then, and the Alprazolam is the only thing that helps.

im taking .25mg of xanax and dont seem to do anything and my worrying is increasing so im taking .5mg for now i was thinking if i should change for a longer lasting to go buy my work days until my anti depressants kick in…

I know its illegal, but will they acctually come after you and put you in jail for only a couple pills?